Wish

a wise woman once told me, a long long time ago, to be brave and make a wish. that wise woman, who i dearly dearly miss, saw a future me that needs to make into reality the wish i made when i was young.

when you are young, y0u have the all the illustrous freedom, the compelling right, the worthy privilege to be brave and make a wish. it was given as a gift. a gift that at a young age most of us cannot comprehend as something special, something precious. when you're young, you can be brave, you can dream of anything you want to be, you wish to have, you need to do ... with no thoughts whatsoever of the whatifs and whatnots.

most often than not, there is not even a thought of not having that wish come true. in the heart and soul of the young, a wish is a wish come true.

i wonder ... can cowards make a wish too?

later.

If this is your LAST DAY on earth ....

If this is your last day on earth, how will you spend it?

I cannot think.

I cannot EVEN falsely imagine the last day on earth is today, more so on how I am spending it, considering it’s already lunch time. Meaning, I already blew my half of the last 24-hours of my life.

SO rewind and say I just opened my eyes and got out of bed at 4:00 in the morning today. Yes, pretty early to start my day but it is Friday and last day of work … what a coincidence that it coincides with the last day on earth … right.

So I get up, thought that this is it, this is the LAST, what am I gonna do? What am I gonna do? How am I gonna start? HOW?

I cannot think.

So since I need a dose of caffeine, I did my short prayer ritual, sign of the cross and thank God for this LAST day and off to the kitchen.

It is cold, isn’t it? So coffee is good. I cannot stay and drink coffee, all by myself, in the deafening silence of the house. So I have to turn the TV on and it’s Jay Leno, a re-run from its usual midnight run. Coffee and TV, a good start, maybe.

Why didn’t I spend the day at home? I mean, it’s the last day, right?

SO in my last day, I’m not working. NOPE. My boss is out of the country and there really is nothing pressing to do at work on this Friday.

SO I am staying home and thinking how to spend my day. Yup, woke up at 4:00 in the morning, coffee and think.

Think. think. think.

HOW?

If this is your last day on earth, how will you spend it?


later.

From Meredith Grey

"A wise man once said you can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it. What he meant is nothing comes without a price.
So before you go into battle, you better decide how much you're willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good means letting go of what you know is right, and letting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building. Of course, the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming, when we don't have time to come up with a strategy to pick a side or to measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us and not the other way around, that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear."

from Dr. Meredith Grey

later.