later

she can't breathe.
she woke up today in the anticipation of an event she has been waiting for in a long time and yet it didn't happen.
she felt the void. the emptiness inside.
she thought today she will receive the answer she have asked herself a hundred times over. she was wrong. it isn't time.
she do not know how long she can wait. she wants to see him again; the desire to be held in his arms. for the first time or for the last.
it still hurt sometimes when you know to yourself that you have let it all go, problems have vanished and life for you has moved on. but in an instant he appears back in your life, everything you have worked hard to achieve in building bricks around your heart began crushing down.
when will this stop? when is the time she can say she has really really REALLY moved on? can she tell? can anyone tell?
later.