Fallin'

have you ever felt this unseen push and pull ofsomething extraordinary and yet you cannot explain itnor put in mere words the description of what you truly feel?

i plan not to write about this and yet i want to sowhen all this is over ... or not ... then i have this piece to read and remember this time of my life when clouds set in and the height of fear is as scary as falling from the zenith of a mountain without anything to hold on to.

falling .... yes, now i know why being in love is called "falling" than actually "climbing" .

you fall and wham! it hits you right at the face. you tried to duck, avoid the impact but it will hit you when it does. and what you can do? feel the emotions it builds slowly from its source, a mixture of boiling and freezing points ... stopping whatever you're doing and just allow nothing but for everything to set in...

i see him and i duck, avoid the impact, even run sofar away ... but what can i do but when my heart is pounding, my smile is giving me away and my head isnothing short but gray matters of him? i have tried to set free myself and feel but when i allow it to happen, i can actually imagine myself in thatmountain, my feet just an inch away from the crash.

so i hold on tight, close my eyes and pray. should i fall or not .... this i ask when i was already fallin' ...

i pray. i pray that the next coming of time, i will see clarity of things, vivid imaginations put into reality, emotions put into action ... you and me.

maybe my next blog will be a different story to tell ....

later. :)